At the beginning of my Awareness, I was shown something, an ability, that I was unaware of.
The day before, Robert and I had experienced an unusual day. We had a difference of opinion on something and it got angry. It was painful for both of us.
We came to some realizations, spiritually. We've learned to recognize that there's always a higher purpose when this happens; a fear one of us must face, or buried pain that floats to the surface that one of us has to embrace and then let go of, but there is always a reason why.
Later, we always realize a growth in our Awareness from the experience. Once the disagreement was over, it went back to business as usual. We talked and cuddled to open our hearts and reconnect again to more positive feelings. While we were talking quietly, I had my eyes closed, relaxing.
Because it was in the middle of the day, it was light behind my closed lids. Then like a cloud moving through my ‘vision’ area, the deep color of pitch black swirled in until it covered the entire area. I was puzzled and I wondered what that was all about. Then, just as quickly, the black was replaced by pure white, which brought back a feeling of peace and happiness.
I waited until Robert finished his sentence, and then I asked him what seeing colors behind your eyelids meant. He said different colors mean different things when someone is Aware. I asked him what seeing black meant, afraid that maybe it was the obvious ... death or something evil was coming.
Robert said it probably meant that something was hidden from me. It could be something I was wondering about or searching for. I then asked about the color white. He said that was the highest color, usually associated with the crown chakra and most often its meaning was good.
He asked why I wanted to know and I explained how the colors had come into my closed-eye vision. Then just as suddenly, the white was replaced by the ethereal light blue color I had seen on other occasions when I first saw colors with my eyes closed. I knew what this light blue was. It was indicative of Conscious Awareness, and a color that always felt serene and good and full of energy to me.
Here is where it got strange. I have often had visions, just before drifting off to sleep. They come from where the Silence is. Usually it is a vision of seeing things vividly that have a symbolic meaning for me.
These are unlike dreams, where all or parts are often forgotten after waking. What I saw wasn't a vision or a dream. I was wide awake and having a conversation with Robert about the colors I was seeing. Just as suddenly as they had come, the colors disappeared.
In place of the colors, I realized I had traveled to my youngest daughter's home. I was standing in their kitchen and I could see her with her husband and their children. It was surreal to be there and to see them so clearly, like I was spying on them. It was very discomforting, uninvited as I was, but still there. It didn't last long, only two or three minutes, and then I was back again.
I felt I was being shown something very important, of this I was certain. When I tried to ask Dinahh, he didn't say anything to me at all. He's told me many times before that I have all of the answers to all of my questions. All I have to do is be Aware, remember and Know, and be Aware of what I already Know.
I've thought about this a lot since that happened. I don't know how I know, but I Know. Seeing the colors came from my third eye, which is open and allowing me to "see". This is called Clairvoyance.
The colors came from my spirit; black is about wanting to see my hidden abilities. White is for good, those abilities I brought with me. Those I'm learning about on this human journey into Conscious Awareness are the light blue.
I feel very strongly that seeing and visiting my daughter and her family was part of some kind of healing ability. I'm hoping to get some guidance on that part of the experience, but I expect I’ll have to remember on my own. That is a large part of my growth.
I asked Robert just now to read this, before I hit the Post button. I told him I’m still learning how to describe things and would he please help me so I can use words that will show I know what I’m talking about. He read it and told me that how I wrote it is exactly as it should be.
He said these are things I’m learning through my Conscious Awareness. I am remembering them on my own. The importance is not in the terminology of which so much is already written. This is coming firsthand and how I am experiencing everything without any influence from others.
He cautioned me to put aside any doubts I feel and not to allow my ego to interfere by telling me these things can't be. Ego and Mind will always try to deny with doubt or fear. He said I should accept my abilities, and that would allow my spiritual growth to continue. Everything is exactly as it should be ...
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Illuminating, C.J. I often panic when I have disagreements and catastrophise that it means the end. Learning that it’s okay to argue at times and it is healthy has been a tough one for me. Also, I see colours just as you’ve described. Most frequently magenta that pulsates or sparks of pale blue light. This never scares me as it’s just beautiful. ✨
I remember reading years ago about synesthesia and chromesthesia and found the descriptions fascinating. Bottom line is I think it's a gift that you're fortunate to have and explore further. Here's a short comment - "There are two overall forms of synesthesia: projective synesthesia: seeing colors, forms, or shapes when stimulated (the widely understood version of synesthesia) associative synesthesia: feeling a very strong and involuntary connection between the stimulus and the sense that it triggers."